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December Days
Tasha Golden, © 2007 Set Adrift Music (ASCAP)

I was afraid
You always came in like a ghost
Snow falling soft from your coat
Lighting our lanterns with whispers and prayers

I stayed up late
You always sang me right to sleep
Glittering lights in the trees
You held our dreams out like stars everywhere

chorus:
I wish you could come
now like you used to
I wish you could come
now like you used to
I'd love to bring you back

When I was alone
You always spoke like something old
Magic and lights in the cold
I'd breathe you in like a wind on my soul

I'd close my eyes
You always came in like a breath
Quiet and still while we slept
December days falling graceful and gold

(chorus)

I've held them close
Winters I so wish I could find
Angels and wonders and signs
Mary and Joseph, a stable, a star

Lay Your Head Down
Tasha Golden, © 2007 Set Adrift Music (ASCAP)

Lay your head down dear
There's no sorrow here
Only time for letting go
And room for landing light as snow
The gentle daylight fading slow
My murmur soft and whisper low
So lay your head down
So lay your head down

Lay your head down dear
There's no sorrow here
Only time for starry skies
And room for long and languid sighs
A gentle dream to close your eyes
A night to fall, a moon to rise
So lay your head down
So lay your head down

Lay your head down dear
There's no sorrow here
Only time for falling in
And room for shadows dark and dim
A gentle song to soft begin
Your breathing out, your breathing in
So lay your head down
So lay your head down

We Can Dream Tonight
Music by Ric Hordinski, Lyrics & Melody by Tasha Golden © 2008 Set Adrift Music (ASCAP)

I thought you were afraid
When the Winter came in like a lumbering train
And the snow clouds put out the stars,
but you were quiet and still in the dark
You were holding on, a sigh and yawn
barely a breath in my arms

But I think we both know
I'm the one who's afraid of these ghosts
Oh, I think we both know
I'm the one who's afraid of these ghosts

I heard you cry in the night
and I heard myself say we were alright
I'm sorry; it's never been true
But I've tried to believe it for you
Maybe you're the star, the sign, a starting line
Morning could break over you

So sleep, close your eyes
Darling, I think we can dream tonight
Sleep, close your eyes
Darling, I think we can dream tonight

So what child is this? I was crying tonight while you slept
Maybe you're the star, the sign, a starting line
Darling, I'm holding my breath...

So sleep, close your eyes
Darling, I think we can dream tonight
Sleep, close your eyes
Darling, I think we can dream tonight

Song for Lovers
Tasha Golden, © 2006 Set Adrift Music

Nights like this were meant for lovers
That’s how they begin
Whisper soft like angel songs
That drift in on the wind

But it only takes a word
To make you shudder in your soul
And that’s all it took tonight
To leave us both like steel and stone

Chorus:
But I can’t live without you
Oh I know I made a mess
I cursed and cried about you,
I could not have meant it less
I could not have meant it less

We were never strong enough
To keep this in our heads
But we were never meant to say
These stupid things we’ve said

And I don’t trust me anymore
Than you can trust me now
Oh but I can’t help hoping good will come
Though I can’t tell you how

CHORUS

And I’m no good at this,
It’s like the story of my life
How I’ve been pounding fists
Against the one sure thing in mine
You’re the one sure thing in mine

Wake Up, Dear
Tasha Golden, © 2007 Set Adrift Music

I woke to what was safer late at night
with the lights dim
Illuminated, it’s staring me down
Now I’m not any braver than I’ve ever been,
and you’ve never been
One to let me feel like I could never let you down

Was I just too quiet all those moments I could feel it
Weighing on our frail and aging dreams?
Thought I was supposed to fight it, maybe wait it out, shake my doubts
But that’s not how either of us wanted it to be

CHORUS:
Wake up, Dear
It’s colder inside than
Your faith or my fear
can shoulder this time

It got cast aside like all the letters
I keep telling you I’ll write
when things slow down, but what does that mean
That I’ll start living life when I can make it fit,
maybe I'll start caring for you sometime in between?

CHORUS

Go ahead, I’m listening
Got an ear for disappointment
I can hear it on my breath
it’s the same, same story
I can hear it in your sweet sigh

CHORUS

Anna
Tasha Golden, © 2006 Set Adrift Music

She was falling asleep with the light on, waiting
With her back to the door and the whole world, fading
He was never no good if he’d leave her, that way
But it’s funny how that’s never made this, okay

CHORUS:
Anna, hang on
There is more where all this came from
(repeat)

Well the news made her more than a name but, barely
To the small town of Troy and the Carman, family
Who were told it would be like it all was, back then
That the world could pretend like it never, happened

CHORUS

In your short life, you’ve lived a thousand times
You stood so brave, they robbed you blind
The truth is, there’ll be harder times
It’s okay to say you’re fine
But I’ll be waiting back behind (and)
you can make your troubles mine...

CHORUS

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Arizona
Tasha Golden, © 2006 Set Adrift Music

Said he’s doing just fine
95, and biding his time
Empty notebooks and bottles of wine
Collecting newspapers and library fines

We’re talkin’ thousands of days
They came, they stayed, and faded lazy away
Left him standing with that look on his face
Knows he’s got too much and nothing to say

CHORUS:
With the whole world, watching him go
Saying live your life or leave us all alone
Us young ones with our never growing old
And his sun goes setting low - in Arizona

It was a Saturday night
He wiped his eyes and turned out the lights
Sixty years and then a silent goodbye
He still forgets and calls her name sometimes

He said he’s easy to please
short sleeves and jeans with grease on the knees
When you’re outliving every one of your dreams
Don’t do no good to wonder what it all means

CHORUS

She said, “Baby, there’s never been much time --
We’ve known it all our lives”
I think she was right...

CHORUS

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My Only Chance
Tasha Golden, © 2007 Set Adrift Music

Please, don’t say a word
Still, don’t make a sound
Gentle, I am barely here

Trust comes slow for me
Not my deep regret
Maybe you would rather leave

CHORUS:
Don’t close your eyes
They always do, they walk away
I need to know
I haven’t lost my only chance
(to be the person I wanted to be)

I have never been
one to ask too much
Tell me if it’s getting late

Every day is new
But I feel the same
Still defined by who I’ve been

CHORUS

So, you’ve heard it now
This, the song I sing
Underneath the face that smiles back
and says hello
and wonders if you’ll ever see much more...

CHORUS

Pieces
Tasha Golden, © 2007 Set Adrift Music

Figured it out, I should have figured it out by now
It’s nothing but a wish; we all dream of something greater
Ever a doubt, if there was ever any doubt
You find out what you are, yeah, you find out sooner or later

Kept my mouth shut, I should have kept my mouth shut baby
It’s nothing but trouble oh it’s had me here before
No matter what, no matter what I hear me saying
It’s never what I could have said on the other side of your door

CHORUS:
Pieces, I’m in pieces
I’m in pieces, I’m invisible

Let it all go, I should have let it all go
Me and all my taking myself so seriously
Enough to know, you’ve been around enough to know
I’d make a mess of plenty more if it was up to me

CHORUS

Or am I, am I blind?
We both lied, we both mind
I won’t cry this time
I always say, I always say I’m fine
Just fine, just fine

CHORUS

A Thousand Lies
Tasha Golden, © 2007 Set Adrift Music

You did the best you could
That’s all there ever is
You always said I would
Never quite get over this

You meant it like a joke
But you sounded so sure
And anyway, I hoped
I wouldn’t hear it anymore

I love to hear you laugh,
a sweet and airy sound
It catches on your breath
and lifts my feet up off the ground

But oh, I’ve seen you cry
A secret, darkened blush
You hold it all in tight
or you will lose it in the rush

CHORUS:
It took a thousand lies
To make these shadows in your eyes
It’d take a thousand lives
to make it right

Sings out of you like prayer
on soft and sailing songs
It comes from God knows where
it’s pushing you along

But it feels in you like cold
That’s how it’s always been
You’re scared of getting old
in this same thick and wintered skin

CHORUS

I’m Sorry
(For little Herlande)
Tasha Golden, © 2007 Set Adrift Music

It’s a dusty color gold
out my window on this winter afternoon
And all the voices in me make no sound
I wonder where you are
Tonight I’m going out for coffee
On my side of the world, the sun is going down, going down

I’ve whispered the thought
That maybe you’re more ready than I am
to come to terms with what is going on
Cause I have grown to hate
the way I cover over all my weaknesses
and say I don’t need anyone, anyone

CHORUS:
You fall asleep at night on a dirt floor
And I fall asleep warm in my bed, wishing I had more
I’m sorry

You never asked for that
Apologies, or songs that rhyme injustices
that only you could know about
But oh, I want to love you
For more than how it makes me feel
And I won’t be ashamed of what I’ve said out loud, said out loud

CHORUS

I fear for what I have
for all that may be taken from me
And even to the things that can’t I hold too tight
So what am I to say
I hope that there is grace enough to
lay beneath you, wrap around you warm tonight, warm tonight

CHORUS

Be Like This

It's Alright

Anna
Tasha Golden, © 2006 Set Adrift Music

She was falling asleep with the light on, waiting
With her back to the door and the whole world fading
He was never no good if he'd leave her that way
But it's funny how that's never made this okay

CHORUS:
Anna, hang on
There is more where all this came from
(repeat)

Well the news made her more than a name but barely
To the small town of Troy and the Carman family
Who were told it would be like it all was back then
That the world could pretend like it never happened

CHORUS

In your short life, you've lived a thousand times
You stood so brave, they robbed you blind
The truth is, there'll be harder times
and it's okay to say you're fine
But I'll be waiting back behind, and
you can make your troubles mine...


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Be Like This
Tasha Golden, © 2006 Set Adrift Music

Your voice was soft
It always is
That’s why I thought
I’d get through this

Your fingertips
Light on my face
Felt like a kiss
That’s my mistake

CHORUS:
I was staying up all night
Had every detail memorized
I felt my edges start to slip
I said I wouldn’t be like this
Said I wouldn’t be like this

I told you once
The braver half
Who I’d become if
You ever left

The less there is
of me to show
The more I wish
you didn’t know

CHORUS

You moved too close
For me to think
Straight, and so
I let me sink

It’s not your fault
I wanted to
I built the walls
I can’t get through

CHORUS

And I apologize for
the way my eyes won’t leave the floor
(repeat)

CHORUS

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Song for Lovers
Tasha Golden, © 2006 Set Adrift Music

Nights like this were meant for lovers
That’s how they begin
Whisper soft like angel songs
That drift in on the wind

But it only takes a word
To make you shudder in your soul
And that’s all it took tonight
To leave us both like steel and stone

Chorus:
But I can’t live without you
Oh I know I made a mess
I cursed and cried about you,
I could not have meant it less
I could not have meant it less

We were never strong enough
To keep this in our heads
But we were never meant to say
These stupid things we’ve said

And I don’t trust me anymore
Than you can trust me now
Oh but I can’t help hoping good will come
Though I can’t tell you how

CHORUS

And I’m no good at this,
It’s like the story of my life
How I’ve been pounding fists
Against the one sure thing in mine
You’re the one sure thing in mine

Arizona
Tasha Golden, © 2006 Set Adrift Music

Said he’s doing just fine
95, and biding his time
Empty notebooks and bottles of wine
Collecting newspapers and library fines

We’re talkin’ thousands of days
They came, they stayed, and faded lazy away
Left him standing with that look on his face
Knows he’s got too much and nothing to say

CHORUS:
With the whole world, watching him go
Saying live your life or leave us all alone
Us young ones with our never growing old
And his sun goes setting low - in Arizona

It was a Saturday night
He wiped his eyes and turned out the lights
Sixty years and then a silent goodbye
He still forgets and calls her name sometimes

He said he’s easy to please
short sleeves and jeans with grease on the knees
When you’re outliving every one of your dreams
Don’t do no good to wonder what it all means

CHORUS

She said, “Baby, there’s never been much time --
We’ve known it all our lives”
I think she was right...

CHORUS

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Long Coat On
Tasha Golden, © 2006 Set Adrift Music

It was a long winter for Katie
and she had the worn look to show it
Her roof was old and leaking,
and she was tired of living below it

She didn’t know who lived above her
But this room below she knew too well
She’d read books of friends and lovers
and wanted stories of her own to tell

CHORUS
She had her long coat on
She had that look in her eye
She was wavin’ her hat in her hand
When she said ‘goodbye’

Her mama stood there gawking by the doorway
Would’ve never guessed she’d finally go
Saw her pack then leave behind her suitcase
sat forgotten in the melting snow

So Katie was away to find her freedom
The winter held her in and let her go
When they said it was a big world, she believed ‘em
but I guess some people have to see to really know

CHORUS

It was a long winter for Katie
But one day Katie had her chance
And back home they never could stop saying
How she left and barely gave them all a second glance...

CHORUS

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The Simple Things
Tasha Golden, © 2006 Set Adrift Music

It doesn’t matter anyway
any more than any other day
I wish it didn’t feel this way
I wish it didn’t feel this way

Of course you’re not the first to go
It echoed in us years ago
These things they happen slow
These things they happen slow

I saw you on the TV screen
They painted you an ugly green
We lose ourselves in simple things
It’s always the simple things

Like your brittle broken heart
But I think that’s the easy part
Doesn’t matter who you are
Doesn’t matter who you are

We feel it under every breath
To say it scares us all to death
But that don’t make it matter less
That don’t make it matter less

They love to beat you when you’re down
And spread the news all over town
Can what was lost ever be found
Can what was lost ever be found

It’s been a long and lonely rain
I listened to me say your name
And nothing in me feels the same
Nothing in me feels the same

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Inside My Head
Tasha Golden, © 2006 Set Adrift Music

It’s just a fear, unnamed
We shouldn’t have to do this to ourselves
we shouldn’t have to do it this way

You weren’t the first, allowed
To blow in like a wind over my soul
To roll in like a thundercloud

It’s all the same, who knows
I came in with a heavy, hollow hand
I came out with a brittle hope

And with my walls defined
More surely I could shake away my pain
More confidently draw the lines

CHORUS:
So you will never get inside my,
See inside my head
You will never get inside my,
See inside my head

You took my hand, we sat down
You told me this was different than before
You told me you would stick around

But good intentions lie
Beneath the sacrifice they take,
Behind the guarded look in your eyes

CHORUS

I came prepared to fight
We shouldn’t have to do this to ourselves
I’m choking on what’s left of my pride

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Some Lovely Story
Tasha Golden, © 2006 Set Adrift Music

Sing a song, commemorate it
Everything you’ve lost
Write how long it’s always taken
Just to swim across

You were always blurry-eyed
You meant it how you said
Bending down, observing lives
As you pronounce them dead

CHORUS:
Hero, Hero
Of some lovely story
Nobody ever wrote

Lean out from your tower, darling
Cast your shadow down
Spend your saved up hours, darling
Nothing matters now

You dreamt your sorrows welled like water
Washing all our flaws
One never saw a better martyr
Dying for applause

CHORUS

Maybe you’d have made it
Easier on us all
If you had never taken it
Upon yourself at all

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Know Better Now
Tasha Golden, © 2006 Set Adrift Music

It’s quiet in Kentucky
You never ask about me
I never thought about it
Until now

It’s cloudy out my window
Just another TV show
and noises in the hallway
outside, and...

CHORUS:
I guess I know better now
That few things ever go
The way that we mean anyhow
That’s better I suppose

You thought that I was joking
when I said I was worried
I’d never love somebody
like you do

It’s easier on some days
I keep me busy anyway
I read a lot on weekends
downtown, and...

CHORUS

I called while you were working
It’s easier than talking
For just so many reasons
And it’s funny how we speak so clear
while such a mess inside
I mean more than I’m saying here -
You know that just as well as...

CHORUS

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